NUCLEAR BOMB for christ

I was walking around campus today, and I got sad thinking about all the unsaved out there. So many people don't know Christ, so many people are going to hell. That depresses me...

This might sound silly, but I just want to be a nuclear bomb for Christ. I would give up my life right now and blow up for God. I could knock down walls, burn up evil, and radiate people with God's love. And then fade from my earthly existence.

If there was such a thing, I would become that bomb, go to the middle of BruinWalk tomorrow, and detonate. Leave my impact for Christ and then go to heaven.

But I guess that's what this life is. Around 60-80 years is nothing-- A vapor in the wind, a wave tossed in the ocean. It's so short that in the larger context of eternity, you're more fleeting than a bomb.

So are you going to be a grenade or a nuke for Christ? We'll see at the end of your life.

-FULLY

Consider the sentence:

Thankfully, I'm alive after the car accident.

or

Hopefully, I will marry a godly wife in the future.

I use them so many times per day, but have you ever noticed that these words say THANKFULLY, and HOPEFULLY?

Fully in what, or who?
In God! Duh.


So let it be a reminder to you next time. For example:

Thank fully in God, I'm alive after the car accident.

or

Hope fully in God, I will marry a godly wife in the future.

Next time you say those words, remember to thank God fully, and hope fully in God. Or whatever word ends with -fully, you know who it fully goes to.

Just thought that was cool.



p.s. - Say what you mean, and mean what you say.

SIN can be a good thing

So I wonder sometimes, why does God still allow me to sin?

Well, today I realized...

1) Every time I sin, it brings me back to the cross and onto my knees.
2) It humbles me because it reminds my prideful self that I can't beat sin out of my own will and strength.
3) It makes me dependent on God's power for victory, because apart from Christ I can do nothing.
4) It shows me how amazing the grace of God is, to save a sinner like me.

It's in the darkest of hours when you see the beauty of the stars. Oh how much more beautiful is grace in times of sin! It's after I sin when I feel nearest to God. Funny, I guess a little sin can be a good thing... sometimes. Haha.

being a MAN

Society tells me that to be a man, you have to be a certain way. Then as a Christian I feel like a man is supposed to be something else. And lastly, I have my own definitions of what manly is. I try combining everything, but I think I'm confused.


What does it mean to be a true man?
I'm not sure. All I know is, I want to have the reputation of being...

A man of his word, and a man of His Word.



p.s. - Maybe I'll just be a ggang-pae for Christ

this is why I love the PURITANS

The queen of Sheba had heard much of Solomon, and framed many great thoughts of his magnificence in her mind thereupon; but when she came and saw his glory, she was forced to confess that the one half of the truth had not been told her. We may suppose that we have attained here great knowledge, clear and high thoughts of God; but, alas! when he shall bring us into his presence we shall cry out, "We never knew him as he is; the thousandth part of his glory, and perfection, and blessedness, never entered into our hearts."

Thoughts from John Owen

The Mortification of Sin

for to me, to LIVE is Christ and to die is gain. [philippians 1:21]

So my friends have been hootin' and hollerin' about going to the doctor to go and get my heart checked out. I finally surrendered and I went today, and I got a blood test, EKG test, urine test, X-Ray, every test you can imagine. And after about 4 hours of testing, they couldn't find anything wrong with me. Nothing. The doctor tells me, "Well, looks like everything is normal. You can go home now you're totally fine." Wooo~ **Breathing out a sigh of relief** I guess it was too early for me to call the "die is gain" part. I'm still in the "LIVE is CHRIST" era. Hehe :)

Geez I got all freaked out this past weekend for nothing. But maybe it was God's way of waking me up from my spiritual slumber. Looking back on it now, He works all things together for good. What a wonderful experience that was, now I know how the psalmist must've felt:

"Whom have I in heaven but You?
And besides You, I desire nothing on earth.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."
[Psalm 73:25-26]


No reserves 'til the day I die. All out baby.

what's the condition of your HEART?

For the past week or so my heart has been doing this weird thing-- Every once in a while it beats hard and fast for a moment, and I just sort of freeze. When it happens I can't breathe for like 1-2 seconds either.

I'm a really healthy guy, or atleast I think I am, so at first it kind of freaked me out. Then to add unto my woes, my genius friend David Park (B.A. in B.S.) thought he could diagnose it by my brief description of it: "Oh my God you have a heart rhythm disorder, it's called disrhythmia. We spent a whole week studying it at EMT class. The next thing that's gonna happen is a heart attack, and a lot of people die from it."

Yea thanks for the encouragement. Makes me feel like a champ!
NOT! You freakin' shekki.

So I was like alright.... I guess it's JESUS TIME (aka "time to die") real soon. And all these thoughts began flooding my head. I still need to graduate. I still haven't got married. Who will take care of my family and friends? But you know what else I thought? The worst thing that could ever happen to you is actually the best thing that could ever happen to you! You die? Pshhh! That's tight!! You get to be with the LORD!! The Apostle Paul sums it up short and sweet: "To live is Christ and to die is gain."

But then again, I love what R.C. Sproul says--"I'm not scared of death at all, but I am scared of dying." Dang me too! At the cross, death has lost its sting, so I don't fear it. But freak! I'm hella scared of the way I'm going to die, whether it's from a freak snowboard accident or a painful heart attack. It would be nice if I could die in my sleep like that couple in The Notebook...

I'm not trying to be emo or anything, but honestly I'm totally fine with whatever God decides to do with my life. He gives. He takes away. I admire Job, who says "though He slay me, I will hope in Him." Or another great example (from Shane&Shane): King Nebuchadnezzar wants to put Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego into a furnace for not bowing down to a false god. They reply "If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to save us from it, and He will rescue us from your hand, O king. But even if He does not, we want you to know, O king, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up." (Daniel 3:17-18) He certainly can rescue us. But even if God doesn't deliver me out of that fiery furnace, I will still praise Him. If I live, then praise God. If I die, then I ask not why, but why not. His grace is sufficient for me, and His love is already more than I deserve.

So today was an interesting day-- the slightest possibility of death, and fancying the thought of dying. It makes you think. Gives you a little reality check, a humble slice of perspective. Things like money, girls, church, school assignments, etc., just fades away in importance. The only thing that matters, and ever will, is Christ. So if you're alive, then to live is Christ. Remember that.

What's the condition of your soul's heart? If you died tomorrow, would you be ready? Would you still praise Him? Think about it.




P.S. - For those of you worried for me, don't worry. I checked WebMd.com and it says heart rhythm disorders are not threatening at all and sometimes it happens to healthy people. :D Atleast it made me examine my real heart.

GOD IS LOVE, BUT LOVE IS NOT GOD.